Marriage and a long term travel honeymoon/spiritual adventure

Well it's wonderful ..... and it's a challenge.  We've been newly married and living out of each others pockets, for over four months now.  During this time I feel like I've experienced every emotion that there is: intense love, hate, aversion, confusion, frustration, happiness, contentment, discontentment, sadness, joy, fortune, dishevelment, kind, accepting, righteous, flexible, delighted, thankful, playful, courageous, patient, calm, peaceful, comfortable, reassured, considerate, affectionate, touched, nosy, curious, anxious, inspired, gloomy, bold, daring, optimistic, secure, insecure, tenacious, rebellious, wild, hostile, hurt, upset, creative, resentful, incensed, discouraged, generous, lousy, perplexed, stupefied, serious, vulnerable, pathetic, clever, offended, cold, tender, caring, loving, heartbroken, dismayed, supported, encouraged, special, cherished, appreciated.

And all these ups and downs in less than five months of marriage.  I have a new view of what is accomplished in years and years of working together this closely with another human being.  It is a very special thing, and at the same time a rocky roller coaster challenge, that at times feels ecstatically wonderful and at other times way too massive and very uncomfortable.

I feel lucky that Snowdon and I so thoughtfully and actively chose to marry each other (I thank Landmark Education for that).  The result of this is that even in our low points we are always responsible for our choices.  I feel that actively choosing each other powerfully has created a very secure foundation for our marriage.  Even so, at times I think he's lucky to have me, and other times I think I'm lucky to have him!  At times I think he's unfortunate to have me, other times that I'm unfortunate to have him (shame on me I think afterwards for these ones, they're never the truth).

Spiritual adventure is what we signed up for, and spiritual adventure is what we're getting, viewing and picking apart each aspect of our beliefs, personalities and ego's in the process.  Flowing along, a both tranquil yet very turbulent, river of discovery together.

We are a couple well matched to learn and grow from each other (our differences can be both intensely grating and pleasantly complementary).  As a result this is certainly a learning and growing relationship and we are not the same people who left NZ four months ago!  May the future hold much further courage, transformation, and happiness for us in our incredibly loving partnership.  I love you honey!

Mahatma Gandhi said, "You must be the change you wish to see in the world".

Well, man are we working on it!